2010

2010, passed me by already.

2010, there have a lot of thing happened during 2010,

failure, sad, wondered, negative thinking, negative altitude..

all those negative things was mess up my life.

However, there also have something that give me a sweet memory.

Anyway, all those things had happened and it left a memory to me.

But, I think that's good enough for me to just keep the good memory~

^_^

In this new year,

Didn't date with friend to countdown together.

Without fireworks, without hurray, without any celebration...

However, I felt happy because I can stayed at home with my family.

Due to the reason that I need to go back to university after two days,

so, I really appreciate the time I spend with my family.

Although I only watch movie with them together.

:)

what's motivate me in new year?

It turned into a good question.

A new year,

A new start,

A new chapter,

A new beginning.

We need to forget the BAD;

Cherish the GOOD.

In my mind, I only hope..

to taking care of them, to give them a promise,

Once a day, I believe I can achieve my commitment to them~^^

你如何看待这些事？

最近的报章，一直都报导政府人员的疏忽，导致人民受苦，甚至家庭破裂。

没错，近期的头版，一名辛苦工作，为的是存到一笔公积金来医治女儿的病。可是，奇怪的是人还健在的妇女，公积金却遭盗。据了解，要得到死亡证书必须通过发出死亡证书的国民登记局，签证死亡证书的中央医院，发出相关文件的警方，以及发出公积金的公积金局等。

那么，这张假的死亡证书，到底是那个局的问题？导致这名妇女的5万多的存款不翼而飞？现在还在进行调查。不过妇女能够失而覆得吗？公积金局是国内最大的基金管理机构，发生这样的疏忽，我们人民还能继续信任他们吗？

更有一则更离谱的事，已经在面子书获得很”好”的评价。警员贿赂不成，恼羞成怒把车主打得遍体连伤！过后强硬把车主的钱拿走，以及在车里置放的钱统统拿走，总共损失一万三千零吉。其中的警员暗示车主不要把事情搞大，谁知道车主的不愿意配合，却换来警员的恐吓，威胁如果不配合，将会将毒品“送”他。事后连“公正廉明”的法官也站在警方的一方。这样的情况，意味这什么？我们心知肚明。

我们的国家，现在正面临怎样的状况？一个马来西亚吗？

My first step

"Interview Invitation: You have 1 interview request from ..., please check your email."

I was surprised that I received the message from company.

Ya, unbelievable that I can get an interview for internship within fews days.

Am I lucky?

Maybe, I think.

Thank God for gives me an opportunity.

And also the company for gave me a change to interview.

and one more important was one of my friend who teach me the way of find an internship job.

Since there was only a short listed people that will ask for interview,

and there was only 2 vacancies for internship job.

Hence, I really appreciate on it.

I am happy since I was success in my first step in my internship plan.

But, I was worried also.

I am worried that I cannot achieve the skill that required since the knowledge that I had in that moment was limited.

Anyway,there is no such things as a free lunch,

because nothing is free, everything comes with a string attached.

I need to put more effort to make myself success.

So, prepare well before the coming date was the primary key to success.

"The chance will never come back once you let it go."

Hopefully I can do it!! (^,^)

当生活中缺少了，你会怎样？

已经超过一个星期没上网了！原因是我家的电线被人偷了，倒霉哦！

有人说，没有得上网等于没有了乐趣。我却说，没有上网等于给我机会拥有更多的时间让我好好休息，好好的让自己充电，让我更多的时间与家人相聚。

没有上网，最大的坏处是我的FYP的进度需要暂时停留在某个阶段。也显得我比别人落后了。但是，俗语说的对：人，输在起跑点没有关系，最重要不能输掉学习态度。

有些人，天生没有比别人聪明，可是凭他坚强的毅力以及明确的目标，他最终肯定会成功的！

在这段期间，爸爸的手因为被机器弄伤了，导致拇指要“休息”，所以我就代替了爸爸的“拇指”，帮忙爸爸。我知道爸爸为了新年的费用，去旅游的念头也没有，相信工厂是爸爸现在唯一“娱乐”的地方。

谁说女子不能当工匠？我就是当了！不过是暂时啦。

虽然做的都是比较轻微的工作，妈妈还说我是“二大六”，可是“二大六”还是有用武之地，帮爸爸减轻了少许的负担。也让我慢慢体会到爸爸工作的辛苦。

另外，看报纸，也变成了我在这星期里必须做的事。从一本书里看到这样的一段：“一天不读书，面目可憎；三天不读书，犹如一只猪。”（多么希望这句话能让某个人看到。）

我嘛，害怕自己会变成一只猪，所以我每天都抽一点时间来把报纸看一遍。我希望这样每天的坚持，能让我狭窄的见识增广，从而改变我的思想以及态度。一切从这小小的坚持开始吧！

报纸只能够填补一天里面少许的时间，所以，我也空闲到翻翻妈妈以前介绍我读的一些书。这样就足够来填补我空余的时间了。妈妈有点偏爱戴晨志老师的书。以前的我没兴趣，因为觉得里面说的都是无聊的道理。也用不着在我身上。

但是，在我读了他的《序》后，我开始对这本书有兴趣了，因为他描述的是他日常的小故事，但带出来的却是大道理。很适合我这些不喜欢思考的人。

因为，以前的我，如果遇到一个没有了双脚，又被父母遗弃的女孩，我只懂得可怜那一个女孩，想为他做点什么的。我绝不会像作者般，能够从中体会当中的道理：那就是，能有那么一个勇敢的女孩，不顾别人异样的眼光，为自己活出自己美丽的一片天空以及他那颗永不向命运妥协的心。

的确，命运，是掌握在自己的手里。

“怠慢的心总是会让人一败涂地。积极的心，是成功的火种，无论失败多少次，决不轻易放弃。”这是我字典里最新的名句精言。(@^,^@)

Merry Christmas 2010

Merry Christmas!

Since Christmas is knocking on outdoors.

So, I was suited my blog to the season. (@"-"@)

Let's celebrate!

"Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way..."

Is time to hang lights, ornament and socks around!

And this time i will celebrate Christmas on the stage,

curiously?

Because "Voltage Desire" will going to have a dance performance in Kluang,

which was organised by JS dance school.

There'll be a lot of professional and

international dancer will be participate in it.

And this was the 1st time I take part in that kind of large show,

it'll be a new experience for me.

I believe that day will be a grand of occasion.

Looking forward to the coming of the day. :)

Cheer up everyone!

Dream

2011, the new year is coming soon.

What's on your mind now?

"There just left 15days in 2010.

My dream in this year cannot be achieve, postpone to next year"

or

"There still have 15days in 2010.

I still have 15days to accomplish my dream which I wish in this year."

Of course.The answer is all depends on you.

In every deep within each heart,

there lies a magic spark which lights the fire of our dream.

We cannot let that light gradually disappear although we fall down many times.

There have a Chinese quote:

"Where you fall, get up from there"

We must learn from lesson to bring us closer to the dream.

Who knows, maybe one day your dream will come true?

There's so much strength in all of us, no matter woman, child or man,

at this moment you think "You can't"

but, with the power of dream, you'll discover that "You can"

Once a day, when you know the power of dream,

you'll know that it'll give you the courage of embrace your fear.

Crystal,

remember no matter where you are,

to reach your own star, you must have a dream!

Wait for you

C#, a programming language that make me faint.

After studied the book that borrow from library,

the information that given still not enough for me, I even can't find the answer that I want..

(some more was expired already,don't know how many will be charged )

:(

Felt regret because didn't borrow the C# reference book from my friend.

That one was last time when I attended the MDEC training,

the company free to us.

Is really useful for me now..

arhhhhhh.....

Cannot blamed others, it's all by myself, my fault.

how can I manage to learn all those coding in this holiday?

Need to study by myself, without any help from lecturer, supervisor...

regret + helpless ~

This is a mission impossible.

Impossible I can achieve this mission....:(

But, now it is not the time to hesitate anymore,

I need save my time to do research on those coding.

I just can say that I will learn as more as possible about coding in this holiday.

At least I done the database part. I think this task should be complete in this holiday.

C#, you are so extraordinary for me, I do love you, so please come to find, so that we can improve our relationship~come~

hopefully tonight can meet you in my dream~

:)

《夏日之诗》

藤井树，今天看到某某人的部落写关于他的作品。觉得有一段写的很有意思，相信藤井树迷对应该不陌生吧。

“灵魂就像一块蛋糕，它四四方方的。 当你爱过一个人，你会将一部分的灵魂给他，像是蛋糕剥去一小片。 如果他也爱你，那么他就会分出一部分的灵魂给你，像是给你一小片蛋糕。 这一来一往之间，那一小片的施于爱，总是会让你的灵魂恢复完整。 如果你爱上的人并不爱你，那么你的灵魂，就会出现缺口。 因为已经给出去了的灵魂，永远要不回来了。”

这是来自藤井数的《夏日之诗》，有兴趣看这本书的朋友，可以去书局逛逛，看能否找到这本书。
很有意思吧，他的作品虽然我看得不多，可是他的文法很不错，用的都是简单而容易明白的字眼。把一块蛋糕形容成灵魂，对爱情模糊不清的我们，可能这个形容让我们比较懂得何谓“爱”。

p/s:那么，以后有谁愿意与你分享他的蛋糕，那么代表他愿意为你付出了他的灵魂。 当然，如果你也愿意，回馈他一小片蛋糕哦~^^

爱惜你们的生命

今天在面子书里，有个大家都离不开的热门话题，那就是Alviss Kong的事件。一个22岁的少年，为了爱情，选择了一条不归路。从自己住家的14楼，跳楼自杀。并不想要责骂，毕竟人已经不在了。只能希望他能安息。

看了很多关于Alviss的报道，很多网友都给于自己的意见。

有的说为了爱情，选择了断自己宝贵的生命实在很可惜，也很伟大，祝他早日安息。

有的对他给了一些很负面的意见。

有些是希望那些给负面意见的网友，既然人已经不在了，希望懂得尊重他。

有些说为什么他能够花时间写那么长的告白遗言，为自己拍最后一张照片，而不能花时间面对心里面的自己。

有些是想知道那个女生的面子书。拜托，如果你是那个女生，你的感觉是怎样？请先往别人立场想。

有些网友还支持Alviss的行为，表示自己也有相同的念头。天啊，这是个很负面的影响。

继上次一名19岁的少年同样为了受不了情变的打击，而在面子书里留言自杀。这已经是次单在面子书留言自杀的事件了。

年轻人的思想容易被扭曲，会不会以后都会有这样类似的新闻？

或许那些为爱能牺牲所有的人，他们会觉得我们不明白他们的想法。或许我们真的无法理解，可是，到底有什么事情是解决不到的呢？非得用放弃生命这个方式来解决？

给所有为爱死，为爱亡的朋友，在你们有轻生念头前，请你们，先想想你们的父母，想想他们如何疼爱你们，从来不舍得打你，骂你。就算是做错了多么离谱的事，他们还是对你们不离不弃。你们知道你们这样随便就想寻死的念头，多么对不起父母吗？多伤他们的心吗？

你们要知道，死了不是最痛苦，痛苦的是还在世上的人。

他们必须每天过着自责的生活，责怪自己为什么不多点关心，了解自己的孩子，天天以泪洗脸。

如果你们是有孝心的，在你们为了爱情搞的遍体连伤之前，拜托先想想你们的父母，以及所有爱你关心你的人，为了他们，请你们必须好好生活下去。

真的，生命是父母，上帝赐给我们的。在他们还没有要放弃我们的生命以前，我们没有权利去放弃我们的宝贵生命。

大家，珍惜生命，爱惜生命。最后，祝福Alviss Kong的家人，那个每天晚上放工都会打包宵夜给Alviss的爸爸，尽早从悲伤中振作起来。

Lost temper

Do you always lost temper in your life?
Yes, I do.
At last time, I will always gave vent to my parent, my friend.
I really failed to control my temper,
easily think negative thing.
Make me always lost my temper.
I think no matter how angry you are,
there is no reason to give vent to people that around you.
Although I have done this before..==!!
But, I hope to change it, any ways to control my bad temper?
I think I should be take a deep breath before give vent to others.
I do know that, once it happened, no way to turn back.
It maybe one of the key that make our relationship broke.

Stubborn donkey

I felt like I am totally a pig when I came back to my sweet home.

Because~~

Today, again I slept until 1pm.

Oh my God!

Unbelievable when I woke up and saw the time..

:)

is really terrible~~

After that I go out with father to banking in my rental and streamxy fees to my house-mate.

Wow~

don't know why there have a long queue in front of the machine.

I guess is salary come out already,

then all of them same as me, want to banking money to clear their liabilities.

There have three machine inside the bank, two machine is for cash deposit

and another one is for check deposit.

After i go inside, only I know that the queue is because of the machine problem.

And also the Malay woman's problem.

Because the machine are quite "high" quality, since it only receive the new “paper money",

it will "refused" the old one. Hence, it make a lot of "convenient" to customer.

Next, the woman, she stand in front of the machine keep on trying, the money reject by machine again and again.

That's fine~

After that, got one man felt impatient,

so he ask the woman whether want change money with her not,

but the woman just ignore him.

Use one word to describe her altitude-STUBBORN!

At the end, she felt embarrassed, and finally exchange money with the guy with unreconciled. Such a rude person!

Sometimes, if we don't want to accept people's advice, it will only make yourself in trouble. This was the proved. So, next time I will learn to accept opinion from others. ^^

迷茫的我

还有半年，我的大学生涯就此结束了。

时间过得真的很快，三年半的大学，即将要过去了。

三年前刚踏入这间大学时的情景还历历在目。

三年后的今天，我问自己，我在三年里有成长么？

思想还是那样单纯吗？对人还一样真诚吗？

对身边的人能够像以前一样

完全相信他们吗？

坦白说，已经改变了。

种种的原因另我

改变了。

变得不再盲目接受别人，

会自己学习思考了。

在大学里，有很多带着面具做人的人。

但，比起在社会里的，根本微不足道。

所以，不需要太

过计较。

在大学里，我很开心的是，

我的身边的朋友都很友善，跟他们一起觉得很开心。

或许，我是幸运的，无论小学，中学，还是大学，我都有一群陪伴我的好朋友。

在我身边支持我，鼓励我，帮助我。

可是，在即将踏入的社会里，我的运气会被我用完吗？

我还能够那么幸运的有一群那样的朋友吗？

听已经踏入社会的朋友说，

他们没有在你失败时踩你一脚已经是不幸中的大幸了。

这是真的吗？

我常问自己，我已经准备好踏入这个社会了吗？

如果还没，那么还剩半年的时间，我还来得及准备吗？

这篇文章充满了问号，就好像我对我的未来非常茫然。

希望我能尽快找到真正属于自己的天空。

~完

我们的红灯

爱情，真的是必须靠两个人去维持，

互相体谅，互相包容，

互相关心，互相提醒。

我承认，我没有做到。

我是个失败的女友。

习惯性的在功课忙，而忽略你。

练跳舞，而忽略你。

我知道的，只是，

我习惯性的逃避问题。

每次你投诉我，没时间理你，

我都会发脾气说你不体谅我，爱投诉。

过后，我都会说我会改。

可是，才几天，我又会重导复测。

问题一样没解决。

或许因为这样，你厌倦了。

开始也习惯了我的忽略，

变得不再投诉我，不再问我今天累吗？

因为，你会觉得我的累是我不会安排时间而导致的。

每当我说我很累，你都会训我，为什么要把自己弄得这样累？

三年了，从我开始读书那一刻起，我们的问题就开始存在了，

现在已经是红灯了，我们能闯过这一关吗？

我希望我们是能的！

Miss you Monnie~

Today, finally i know what is the meaning of impermanence of life.

At that moment you felt that everything was good, felt the word are good,
felt happy on everything.

But, you don't know there have such bad thing happen to you in the next moment.

There was a bad news i want to share in this blog.

Last year, if i not mistaken was on July, me and Shelyn was get a hamster from our senior and named it as monnie and shuwey. Monnie is mine, and Shuwey is shelyn's.

Monnie is older brother, and Shuwey was elder brother because monnie always bullied shuwey at that time.

Long time they didn't meet already because I take monnie go back hometown since last two sem.

Now, they cant meet already, because monnie was died.
He died because he is old.
As you all know, hamster only can spend maximum two year for their life.

Felt surprise when i didn't saw monnie at table when i reach home today.
My dad told me monnie was died on Monday.
They worried me will felt sad, so didn't tell me at that time.

Monnie, although he is gone, but i will remember him.

He was cute, cool and naughty.

He always like to put many food in his mouth
and then put it out and hide it inside the sawdust.

He like to lying on the "wheel" to enjoy his favorite food.

He don't like people touch his fur,
every time you touch his fur, he will resist.

That's was my pets, Monnie.

the first day monnie with me~he was still small at that time~

after three month~

His pose while sleeping ~ Pose 1

Pose 2~